January 25, 2017 Dealing With Grief

Our candy cabin.

Enjoying the view from the
south ridge Tuesday morning.

View from our loft window
this morning.

Monday 1/23. After feeding the girls and dogs, I went back to bed for another hour and a half. . .

When you lose a loved one, suddenly the world is very different and there is a very big hole in your life, full of nothing but wispy memories.  Pouring the love you had for the one who is gone into that hole is like pouring hot water into a sieve.  It just leaks out all over your heart, and burns.  You know that hole will never mend, but in time the love you try to pour into it will find other places to go.  The love for the lost one will always be there, always be as strong.  It just won't burn your heart as much.

JB and I deal with grief in different ways.  He needs to stay busy.  I need to sit and absorb the change, the loss.

It was definitely time for a Larry McMurtry novel, so today I began reading Leaving Cheyenne.

JB went digging into the candy cabin and found some Easter candy.  Lord only knows what year it is from, but, hey - it's chocolate!

Here's an interesting bit of information.  If you die in King County (which includes Seattle), you owe the county a $70 death tax.  As if the survivors aren't already dealing with enough.

At least my wish for some sunshine came true today.  By noon the sky was mostly blue with the sun shining brightly on the snowy landscape.  Our high was 34.

My Aunt Nene's hip operation went well today and the doctor was very pleased.  She will be in the hospital for three days, and then go to rehab for two weeks.  She may be 91, but she is a spunky 91.

Tuesday 1/24. It was 24 and mostly cloudy this morning, but soon there were large patches of blue sky and the sun managed to peak between the clouds most of the time.

We dug out the tractor and my Jeep, and got them running for a little while.  I dug out MAX and Miss Kitty a bit more.  JB had them running yesterday.  We took the seat out of MAX to do some serious contemplating about what might be causing the chain to be out of alignment.  Didn't come up with anything solid, but we will think about our theories tonight and try again tomorrow.

By 3:00 pm, large dark clouds had drifted in to the north and south, and soon the whole sky was overcast.  By 4:00, snow began to fall but that only lasted for about an hour.  Our high for the day was 40.

If Larry can get their Snow Cat running well, he and Elsie will drive up on Sunday or Monday, bringing our mail and a few groceries.  If he is able to plow, we just might get Miss Kitty down the road, or not. . .

Wednesday 1/25. It is 22 and mostly clear this morning with some low valley fog.

Thought for the day: The most difficult thing is the decision to act.  The rest is merely tenacity. Amelia Earhart